I have no idea

 I have no idea

We've become very close in the past 6 weeks, closer than either of us even imagined. I'm scared too, Ben. I'm most afraid of you not giving us a chance. If you let the fears you are having stop us from even giving this a chance, then we'll never know what it could have been. We'll regret it, Ben.

There's something between us. I have no idea what it is, but I do know that it's good. Whatever it is that makes it so easy for us to be together, Ben, is definitely something good.

I wish I knew more of what to say to you. I wish that I knew something, ANYTHING, to say that would encourage you to call me. All I want is to hear your sweet voice, and to tell you that whatever we have, whatever it brings, is okay. If we meet, and something doesn't click, then having a friend that understands you as much as we understand each other, would be entirely worth it, Ben. If we do click, then we will begin the most amazing ride of our lives. Either way, we win. So why forfeit when you're a sure winner? Give us a chance, Ben. Please call me.

the full title is

the full title is
Lessons Learned from a Perfect man to a Hesitant man
Sitting here with a subtle grin
I'm filled with joy and peace within
The reason is this journey is drawing to an end
Won't be long before I can see family and friends
Where do we go from here
Do we go back to living as we once did
Or did we learn to cherish, and love life like a kid
How many of us will be coming back different from
six months ago
How many will have something to valuable to show
When I say value not speaking of material or monetary
The value I mean is the heart,soul,values,priorities
Is your heart filled with more love than before
Is your soul seeking guidance from above
Do you value your family more
Do you feel you have more to live for
I made it a personal goal to come back different
Though I didn't want to come at first
Turns out I needed this and it helped me grow
God is in control he brought me here to reflect
on my life and values, priorities.
Though I'm humble he taught me you can never be too
humble
He taught me I wasn't humble enough
I took a lot for granted cause it's so easy to do
I'm better prepared to handle what GOD brings me to
I hope you able to live differently now
I hope you took advantage of this journey
GOD is always present and always teaching
It's funny how the things we contest the most
Can turn out being the best thing for us
We hate change so much
I've learned to look at it as a new beginning
A FRESH START to a new way of living

Those green eyes

 Those green eyes

I see the fire every day of our lives.
I see the fire and how it sits and thrives.
Inside the tiny package, always seeing good
I see the fire in my son, the way a father should.

He wakes the day with excitement and sound.
He smiles at the daylight, and without good he frowns.
His ambition is school, and oh what a thrill,
He finally rides the bus, all over the hills.

His stories are legendary after every days end.
Those green eyes sparkle as he tells them again and again.
The stories are his verbal journal, of the life that he loves;
He tells them every night until the sleep claims his words.

Tracks and toys and “what not’s” galore,
He loves trains best and Thomas he adores.
I want him to see everything the world has to see,
Life, the love, the possibilities which can, and will be.
He sees those things; I can only see the reflection in the mirror of his eyes.

Do you see the fire? If you can’t……wait