A Love so Special

                                                 
                                  
                                                        A Love so Special

A love so special, that's what you and I share each day
So in tune with each other, sometimes no words need we say
Bonded within our hearts, separated only with our bodies
Together we truly have it all, a love to forever please

A love so special, such a blessing to know a love so true
Nothing compares to your beauty, or to this love I have for you
Connected with our souls, two hearts that truly beat as one
A life of pure happiness, a love of total satisfaction

A love so special, with our words and actions we do show
That our love is forever, never will we let each other go
Attached so completely, no longer do we breathe individually
Our love to us so miraculous, a love just waiting to be free

A love so special, a treasure far more precious than gold
This masterpiece of ours, we know the best is yet to unfold
Captured by our love, together we make a couple so amazing
Respect and honesty so essential, a love to make our hearts sing

A love so special, the way our two hearts blend so easily
So many years behind us, ahead of us a love thru eternity
Simply in love so deeply, a part of us that seems so natural
What we share is incredible, a love we both call so special

A Simple Love

A Simple Love

Many are the dreams I have each nite, with you as their central theme
In the silence of the nite, about our special love I so often dream
Dreams that seem so real, so many dreams of our future yet to come
Dreams about your beauty so amazing, a simple dream about freedom

Many are the tears that come without fail, each tear because of missing you
In the solitude I must face alone, so often I have nothing to do
So the tears come too easily, tears that I wish  would simply go away
Tears that I cannot hide, too many tears are the price I must pay

Many are the memories of our love, of the special times we have shared
In the loneliness of my life, just thankful for someone who truly cared
Memories help me thru each day, countless memories that make me smile
Memories that only you and I know, memories that can linger for awhile

Many are the times I miss you so, more times than I could ever count
In the darkness I feel your love so near, having your love so paramount
Missing you is my daily routine, missing you anytime I am awake
Missing you I will never like, but missing you I must sadly take

Many are the aspects of our love, for we are never truly apart
In these feelings I have for you, a special love from within my heart
What sets our love apart will we ever know, or should we even care
Let's just keep our love simple, and spend a lifetime with this love we share

What I Miss

                                                    

                             What I Miss

Dear .............

I didn't realize until now just how badly I mishandled our relationship and my feelings for you. By being apart and not talking for so long, I quickly learned that you were everything I ever wanted and by being so afraid of losing you, I ended up chasing you away by scaring the heck out of you. It wasn't until now that I've realized that instead of complaining about the time I didn't have with you, I should've cherished the time I did have, because it was real and filled with affection. I didn't realize until now ....

I was never alone when we were apart, because just as you were on my mind, I was likely on yours. It wasn't until now that I've realized how special it was to hear your voice even just once a day, let alone several times a day, instead of pouting that you may have fallen asleep without calling first.

And finally, it wasn't until now that I've realized that it wasn't the late phone call for me to come over because you missed me, or to stay overnight that I miss so much ... what I do miss is the feeling behind the way you always stared at me and kissed my hand in the car. The way we looked into each other's eyes and spoke without saying a word. The way you trusted me with your children and I trusted you with mine. The way you wrote I love you on a steamy window or mirror only to show up again and again for me to see when we were apart. The way you signed to me that you loved me or snuck a kiss or hug in while the kids weren't watching. The way we joked that we were attached at the hip while fixing supper. The way we wrestled while tickling each other. Jenni, I could go on and on but you know what I'm saying. Yes, it's the little things I miss the most. The little things that I so recklessly took for granted. All the other was purely a bonus that I overreacted on, eventually destroying "Us."

The promise I made to you is a promise that I will keep forever no matter what. You will always hold a special place in my heart. Even though I'm dating here and there, I seem to end up comparing them to you. You've set the bar very high for me and that's a good thing because I refuse to settle for less than the standard you've set. On that Wednesday (June 4th.) when I returned home and found your e-mail, it was the happiest I'd been in that 5 weeks. I so applaud you for making that move because at the very least, I regained a friend. One that means the world to me.

So, here's the reason I had to tell you this; if that man in your dreams vaguely has a name and a face, resembling mine, tell him to chill for a bit, so he doesn't make another life altering mistake by moving on, possibly settling for less. You can be assured that this time, he will take the proper time for you to be ready to accept it, however long that may take.

Before I close I want to sincerely say one last thing straight from my heart ... I'm very sorry I tried to force you play by my rules, and I realize now what I miss the very most is you!

Forever my love,

I Need You

                                                        
                

                                                                      I Need You


Dear ........

How I missed you this few days of crisis. I don't mean to hurt you. You know I hate seeing you angry hence I would not want to do anything that would get you annoyed. A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine; you are my sunshine. Your absence in my life means I am in darkness. How I need you in the dark to make my heart shiny. I need you in the cold for my warmth. Please try and find it in your heart to forgive and forget. If saying good bye to this relationship is right, I would rather want to be wrong and have you as a love.

Love always,

No Holding Back

Dear..........

Please forgive me for my actions these past few months; I have not been doing my job as a mother, as your wife, and as your lover. You deserve more than I could ever give you. I love you so much! From this point forward I will show my love for you and do my duties as I should. I refuse to hide my feelings for you any longer, next time we are walking down a busy street and you lean to kiss me, my lips will allow yours to kiss them and I will not care what others will think of me and you. You are a wonderful father and husband and I am proud to have you as my significant other. Love you always!

Love always,

Your Baby Girl

Sorry I Hurt You

Sorry I Hurt You

Dear...........

I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us that night. I least expected it, I experienced the worst headache ever, all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. I cursed my stars that night, as my expectation for the night was so much greater, but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.

We all made mistakes not trying to understand each other, some words did hurt in some way and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether truly I have some intimate relationship with Millicent. I guess this issue has always been the stand block of our relationship getting worked out. I know it's been hard for you trying to understand the real truth. Perhaps I need to give you a chance to find out for yourself whether what I'm trying to make you understand is the real truth or not. Trust is very important, especially in a new and an up-coming relationship, and so I have no objection about you finding out the fact about whether I have a relationship with her.

I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected, trying to find out the truth about something, it's really hard and needs much time, but I guess I got carried away by saying those words to you. I know you said you can't forgive me, neither will you forget, but I know deep down in me, I've regretted saying those things to you and being the first guy to have said this to you also hurts me a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not *I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.*

Perhaps this is the chance for us to experience the passion in each other. The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience and one thing we must understand is that, in every relationship, whether old or new, we're sure to experience some problems but it's up to us to solve them. These are some of the things that might break our warm friendship and everything we are planning ahead of us. We need to understand each other and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work. I know you want this to work as much as I do and I still have my hopes up, never giving up on you. Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship: "It doesn't take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind." I know what I've seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you. Your perception about guys is really not correct, guys are never the same, maybe some times you might think we think alike but the heart shows all the difference.

For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you last night. You caused me pains too but and I'm really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and that you get all the time you need to make your decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you. Hope to hear from you... I remain yours ....

Love always,