my sweetie

                                                                         
                                                 


                                                                       my sweetie

my sweetie, my lover, my friend - I want you to

 know how much I love you and why:

Thank you for acknowledging my thoughts and feelings whether they are positive or negative, justified or unjustified. I feel safe to be myself knowing I can not be perfect and you will continue to love me.

Thank you for the time you take to give me an extra hug or tell me I am wonderful or squeezing my hand affectionately. Those silent moments recharge my senses of appreciation for you.

Thank you for asking if you can help me work on my homework ... it shows me that you are genuinely supportive of my goals, which are such a part of who I am.

Thank you for answering all my questions without criticism or impatience - you have shown me that my dream of a kind and considerate relationship is a reality. You motive me to expect and tolerate no less and to be the same with you and those around me. You have created calmness and safety in my life which I only ever imagined.

Thank you for the times you ask me, "Do WE need to take of this?" The partnership I have hoped for is expressed in little comments like that.

Thank you for speaking so complimentary of me to others; when you do this, you place such value on me that makes me only want to be even better - you have helped me to find my "drive" again.

Thank you for being so appreciative and expressing such when I make you a drink or remind you of a call to make or errand to run. It shows me you do not "expect" and makes me want to be the same with you.

Thank you for taking the time and having the thought to inform me of your plans; you show the respect you have for me and for us. Thank you for wanting to protect me from unkind words or behavior.

Thank you for constantly telling me or showing me that you are attracted to me physically, emotionally and mentally - you have brought back the confidence I had misplaced. Thank you for inviting parts of my world into yours and making them one.

Thank you for going to my doctor's with me - showing me your concern and commitment to us - that our relationship is much more than surface deep. Thank you for always being satisfied with the world; you not only reminded me of the way I use to "see" things, but are helping me to get back to that way. Thank you for having control of your future and your career; you reminded me to have faith and strength in myself.

Thank you for hugging me and kissing me when I get home as if we are still dating - the passion that I have for us just keeps building!

Thank you for each time you come in, you look for me to say hello! I know you look forward to seeing me.

Thank you for playing games with me, hiding to scare me and talking silly with me; I am assured we will never grow OLD together.

Thank you for tucking me in at night and sharing your real-estate. Thank you for your heart when we hug goodnight. Thank you for bringing me to a place where YOUR pleasure and happiness are what truly makes me feel good.

Each day, I am in awe and I say to myself, "I can't believe I just keep falling more and more in love with him each day!" Each day, I love listening to you more. Each day, the intensity and passion when making love with you just keeps getting deeper. Each day, I find myself wanting even more for you than you want for yourself. Each moment, I find myself more patient, more driven, compassionate, less selfish more appreciative and with greater faith and strength in myself. Each Day with you in my life and what you give to me, and remind me of just by you being YOU, I see myself becoming a better person! Thank you for all you give me by just being in my life.

I love you and only you and want you and only you - I could never have even imagined or wished for such a blessing when it comes to you and me being together and how lucky we are to be in love.

Mark, Honey, I love you so very much and I hope this reassures you.

I have no idea

 I have no idea

We've become very close in the past 6 weeks, closer than either of us even imagined. I'm scared too, Ben. I'm most afraid of you not giving us a chance. If you let the fears you are having stop us from even giving this a chance, then we'll never know what it could have been. We'll regret it, Ben.

There's something between us. I have no idea what it is, but I do know that it's good. Whatever it is that makes it so easy for us to be together, Ben, is definitely something good.

I wish I knew more of what to say to you. I wish that I knew something, ANYTHING, to say that would encourage you to call me. All I want is to hear your sweet voice, and to tell you that whatever we have, whatever it brings, is okay. If we meet, and something doesn't click, then having a friend that understands you as much as we understand each other, would be entirely worth it, Ben. If we do click, then we will begin the most amazing ride of our lives. Either way, we win. So why forfeit when you're a sure winner? Give us a chance, Ben. Please call me.

the full title is

the full title is
Lessons Learned from a Perfect man to a Hesitant man
Sitting here with a subtle grin
I'm filled with joy and peace within
The reason is this journey is drawing to an end
Won't be long before I can see family and friends
Where do we go from here
Do we go back to living as we once did
Or did we learn to cherish, and love life like a kid
How many of us will be coming back different from
six months ago
How many will have something to valuable to show
When I say value not speaking of material or monetary
The value I mean is the heart,soul,values,priorities
Is your heart filled with more love than before
Is your soul seeking guidance from above
Do you value your family more
Do you feel you have more to live for
I made it a personal goal to come back different
Though I didn't want to come at first
Turns out I needed this and it helped me grow
God is in control he brought me here to reflect
on my life and values, priorities.
Though I'm humble he taught me you can never be too
humble
He taught me I wasn't humble enough
I took a lot for granted cause it's so easy to do
I'm better prepared to handle what GOD brings me to
I hope you able to live differently now
I hope you took advantage of this journey
GOD is always present and always teaching
It's funny how the things we contest the most
Can turn out being the best thing for us
We hate change so much
I've learned to look at it as a new beginning
A FRESH START to a new way of living

Those green eyes

 Those green eyes

I see the fire every day of our lives.
I see the fire and how it sits and thrives.
Inside the tiny package, always seeing good
I see the fire in my son, the way a father should.

He wakes the day with excitement and sound.
He smiles at the daylight, and without good he frowns.
His ambition is school, and oh what a thrill,
He finally rides the bus, all over the hills.

His stories are legendary after every days end.
Those green eyes sparkle as he tells them again and again.
The stories are his verbal journal, of the life that he loves;
He tells them every night until the sleep claims his words.

Tracks and toys and “what not’s” galore,
He loves trains best and Thomas he adores.
I want him to see everything the world has to see,
Life, the love, the possibilities which can, and will be.
He sees those things; I can only see the reflection in the mirror of his eyes.

Do you see the fire? If you can’t……wait

with all my heart.

                                                                with all my heart.

Never in a million years did I ever think that I could find the kind of happiness and love that I have found with you. You are a dream come true and I'm really glad that fate brought us together. It was a little difficult going at first, we had so many obstacles to overcome and friends doubted it would work out, but look at how much we showed them! You mean everything to me, Babe, all that and a bag of chocolate kisses! And I know that with every day we are together, the love just gets stronger and stronger. I love you, Babe, with all my heart.

Never in my wildest dreams

                          

                                                Never in my wildest dreams

Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would meet a woman that could captivate and win my heart at "Hello". Every moment from when I wake up till deep in the night, there is no place on earth I would rather be than holding and kissing you tenderly.

You are a special woman with unique and intriguing qualities that drive my desire for you far beyond any imagination. Never in my life until the day I met you have I wanted to bring a child into this world, share everything, offer all my love unconditionally, and grow old with someone to one day reminisce of the years we shared together. Just the thought of offering my total heart and spending my life cherishing every moment with you, brings these incredible emotions to me I have never experienced before.

The worse day of my life was letting you slip out of my life three years ago because the timing just was not right for either of us, but second chances do not come too often in life. I will not go on another day without giving us a true chance at a life with love and happiness I know we could embrace together.

A wise man once told me, "When it is real, you will know," … I know.