From the first time

From the first time

From the first time we met I knew you were special, unlike other guys. I never thought we would be where we are today married and with a child. The roads we have traveled have been long and bumpy, but we survived the ruts. Thank you for always giving us that extra chance to make it and never giving up on us no matter how bad things got.

I love you so much, and I want you to know that I appreciate everything you do for me. You are an amazing daddy too; John David is so lucky to have you as a father. When you hold him, I fall in love with you all over again because I see the life we created, the life that we share, our family. I'm so excited to share that special moment with you. Thank you for never leaving me by myself when I was in the hospital; you came every day just so I would have company. You were right by my side through it all, and when the baby was in the hospital I made it through all of it because I had your arms to fall back on.

Thank you for taking care of my bills when I could not work. Thank you basically for supporting me in everything. You are an amazing person and I want you to know you are my very best friend. I love you so much more than this letter could ever say. You are my life, my destiny.

Love always,

I'm really glad we've turned the page

I'm really glad we've turned the page

I'm really glad we've turned the page, I hope you are too. You've been a dear friend for four years ... and although it's still weird when I say "boyfriend" when speaking of you - it feels really good. Here's to hoping for another four years of laughter, intelligent conversation, craziness, sharing, caring for each other, passion, exploration, honesty, comfort, and respect. I really do adore you, but then - you already know that.

With undying love,

Can you imagine a life without me

                                           Can you imagine a life without me
 

Can you imagine a life without me? Now that we've met I cannot see my future without you in it. Every dream I have I see your face; every thought I have your name is in the whispers of the wind. You follow me everywhere, you are the reason I have a good day. You are the reason I smile when there is nothing to smile about. I know I truly love you when I look into your eyes and my heart skips a beat.

When I am sitting there with your head in my lap playing with your hair and you fall asleep, I know I can never let you go. You look so peaceful and my love for you grows. When you look up at me with those beautiful eyes I see nothing but the love you have for me! How could I ever possibly let you leave my life? Sometimes I don't understand why I love you so much, but that's the greatest gift of love, you don't have to understand it, you just need to enjoy it and return the love that is given to you.

I want to thank you so much for allowing me to feel the greatest feeling I have ever felt, and I promise to cherish it and always love you and do my best to keep you happy. I just wanted you to know how much you mean to me. Thank you for everything you have done for me! And I am looking forward to the life we will share together.

It has been so very long

It has been so very long

It has been so very long, but I still remember everything. I miss your kiss and the way you made me feel so safe. I never thought we would ever be apart, but now it's been way too long. I just want to hear your voice. I miss the way you could hold me so tight. I know our life together has not been perfect, but that's just the way life goes. The way I feel for you doesn't go away. I thought after you left you would fade away from my mind, but still everyday I wake up dreaming of our time together. I will never forget you. I hope you still think of me too. I love you with all that I am, all that I was and all that I will ever be.

Love Always,

You're a smart

You're a smart

Danny, you know I love you. It has been almost a year and I still want you back. You must see that. You must realize that I can't let you go. You were my first. I truly love you. I made so many mistakes. I screwed up with my jealousy. I see how I had nothing to worry about. I had you and my stupid thinking told me otherwise but my heart always knew you loved me and that you wouldn't leave me, but I had to mess everything up and my pathetic attempts to try and get you back. I tried to forget about you but it is so hard to stop loving a man like you. You're a smart, handsome, funny man who has a great future ahead of you and I want to be a part of it. I believe in second chances no matter how much a person screws up and I screwed up big. I believe we are meant to be together forever and always. We were best friends since the 9th grade and I've loved you since then. Please take me back. Mend my broken heart.

Love always,

I want you, I need you

I want you, I need you

I know I have made a ton of mistakes but I would like to put those behind us, if at all possible, so we can move on with the rest of our lives, live on with the good and leave the bad behind us. I know that will be hard, especially after all that I have done, but if we could start all over again fresh from the beginning, I will never hurt you again because I know how much it hurts you now that I have made the mistake which I regret to the fullest. I just want to be happy and I want you to be happy and feel safe that I'm never going to do that again.

I know that it could take forever but I will stake that, especially because of how much I love you and how much this means to me. Rachael, if you could please forgive me, that would be awesome. You have put too much into the relationship for me to go and screw it up. I just want to make it all right and for you and I to be back together no matter what that takes. I have made it a "shame on him" and I will not make it a "shame on you."

I love you. I know I have made a ton of mistakes but I would like to put those behind us, if at all possible, so we can move on with the rest of our lives, live on with the good and leave the bad behind us. I know that will be hard, especially after all that I have done, but if we could start all over again fresh from the beginning, I will never hurt you again because I know how much it hurts you now that I have made the mistake which I regret to the fullest. I just want to be happy and I want you to be happy and feel safe that I'm never going to do that again.

I know that it could take forever but I will stake that, especially because of how much I love you and how much this means to me. Rachael, if you could please forgive me, that would be awesome. You have put too much into the relationship for me to go and screw it up. I just want to make it all right and for you and I to be back together no matter what that takes. I have made it a "shame on him" and I will not make it a "shame on you."

I love you. I will never leave you; I want you, I need you. You are the greatest! I love you, my sweet, so please can you forgive me?

Love always,; I want you, I need you. You are the greatest! I love you, my sweet, so please can you forgive me?

Love always,

cannot express them enough

                             
                                                      cannot express them enough 

Tonight I write of love to you. I know that in our course of 5 years we have been up and down and just about all around, but yet, through it all we still hold on - holding onto a dream that one day we will be happy together again, the way we were before.
I know a love like ours people often dream about; that's why I hold on. To ease my mind I need to know ... why do you still hold on? I cannot change the past but work towards the future. I see in my future you and only you. You're my sunrise and sunset - my whole being of myself, living only for you. You make my rainy day's seem happy and my sunny day's something to look forward to as I wake each day. I know I have yet to be perfect and maybe a little rough around the edges but I know that I can be all you want, desire, and need in a lady.

We created a lovely baby made completely out of love, for that is why every day I look at her, she reminds me of the love we once held so dear. The day you packed your things and left, a part of my heart broke a little more through the endless tears and the unknowing of what is to become of us. It really had me afraid that this time, the end may truly be the end. But still we stay together, maybe not in sharing a home but still together, just to hold dear that true love can happen even to those whom have fallen a little out of love.

I am thankful we keep trying, for you are the most important person in my life and nothing will ever change that, my soul mate. I love you so deeply that even words tonight cannot express them enough.

Love always,